I am eager to utilize this as a platform to express my thoughts and at the same time receive as much feedback from whomever may be interested, as possible. I am new to the Blog world, therefore, this initial submission will be a simple, short introduction. I am a nurse, however, have many roles and irons in the fire as most of us do. As of late, I have had so much on my mind and many questions and/or ideas in which much appreciation for alternate perspective was desired. So, I thought let me give this blogging deal a shot as a venting mechanism first, and then, see what occurs.
I have had a terrible headache for the past few days and have sat long hours attempting to evaluate what in the world is going on. My initial thought was am I having a stroke! I know better than that, as the overwhelming amount of stress in which I have dealt with and continue to endure must be the culprit. No matter how hard I have tried, no matter how often I smile and give unto others, and put my wants/needs on the back burner to please the next individual; there is an underlying reminder that I must find a more appropriate method of coping with being the “strong one”.
For example, today I have taken Advil and whipped up a home remedy tea. I even tried to lay down and take a nap (but I can’t stay off my phone being nosey, when there is actually nothing AT ALL going on, that can’t wait). I turned on the television as a distraction to this horrible headache. I researched information on etiology of headaches and even googled any information on headaches related to digestive issues, as my digestive system is the pits. You know, I think, I only contributed to my pain as the constant brain stimulation just made it worse. So, I figured I would set up a blog and type out a bunch of my thoughts relative to the matter and worsen my headache even more.
I think I need some tips on how to calm a brain that remains in “GO” mode. My brain is turned “ON” at all times and I honestly don’t want to turn it to “OFF”. I know this approach to life is dangerous but I can’t help it. At this point, I am noticing that I may not have a choice, given this unusual headache. I love, love, love, information, data, research, news, current events, media, social media, education: law, nursing, medicine, therapy, robotics, animals, ecological/environmental issues, humanity, food, cooking, self-help, how to, crafts, writing, etc… Hell, I like everything! I want to learn about any and all things non-STOP!
My brain will not turn off! I get overly excited and anxious with near panic attack mode if there has been NO opportunity for me to learn something new in any given day and/or improve in some manner within my self, for myself; or for someone else. Yet, I think my mind is getting overheated and starting to power down. I think the headache is a warning and opportunity for me to take notice and be proactive in tuning my brain down voluntarily; but HOW? I can’t! I have insomnia because of it. When I do awake from a nap or few hours of sleep; I go right back to searching, researching, analyzing, strategizing, planning something. Many times I don’t even know what that something is initially but i find something no matter what. My family often says, “Oh you couldn’t find anything to do or are you bored, now that you’re in the kitchen rearranging the cleaners and dog treats under the sink!”
See, I said I would make this initial blog short and sweet, RIGHT? Well, what the HELL happened? My brain won’t stop! HELP! 🙂 No, honestly, I am not in dire need of rescue but I would like to know if anyone else is out there that struggles with have a brain that has its green light on at ALL times? If so, how do you handle it? Share a few coping mechanisms if you don’t mind. I figure I better get off here now for a spill my eyes are getting heavy, so I won’t push it, time for a break. Thank you so much for reading my first rant!